Monday, January 30, 2006
Sunday, January 29, 2006
Friday, January 27, 2006
Just follow the rules, why do you want to cause trouble, can't you just be like the rest of us, what's wrong with you/ are you on drugs, I don't know who you are anymore. You need to get married and start a family, ugh, these were all the comments bombbarding me from my family. I couldn't talk to any of my friends about this whole thing for one they all had families and I didn't think that they would understand. I tried putting all of this on a back burnner, however, I don't do simmer very well . It was in my last semester in college durring mid-terms , minutes away from beginning the tests. I decided that going to the restroom would be an excellent idea. All I had to do was cross the hall, at the percise second that my hand extended for the door BAM! to the floor I go. I openned my eyes and saw the most handsomest man I'd ever seen. He was kneeling beside me, "Hello, are you alright, I'm so sorry I was going to the restroom and I'm so sorry are you ok, here take my hand." He extends his hand and gently lifts me , still holding me, ( I must have been wobbly), " Can I help you get back to your class?" Finally , my words form but there is no sound so I point to the room across the hall. "Are you sure your alright?" All I did manage to say is "mm". I had never seen him before and it would be a while before I would see him again. I had given up on "Mystery Man" , I decided it was all a fluke anyway. Days/weeks/months . One day on my way out to my car he drives by me, stops , backs up and we begin to date, four years later we get married after he came back from Naval Officers 's School. Things were good for awhile, I learned to cook but not like his Mother and thus the arguements began, he would eat at Mom's come home to me and what was I suppose to do with all of this food? One thing lead to another, then the physical fights , all because I was cutting out coupons and reciepies. It went on and on ,over and over, until one night I'd had all I could stand. I thought the unthinkable , at the last split second I decided I wasn't ready to make new friends and murder still wasn't legal yet. Yes, I was this miserable. I felt like there was no-one who'd want to listen , my bruises wheren't just physical but deep emotional damage. My self esteem was gone. I had to get out but how ?
Thursday, January 26, 2006
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
Ahhh, finally there is my familar friend falling softly from the sky as though they could be snow flakes drifting in front of the headlights before reaching the ground. I humour myself and try to distract my mind from the rain. I spend most of my night dodgging cloud burst and puddles that have nowhere to runoff to and dry out. Is it rainning or is that tiny sheets of sleet? It's too cold to be rain got to be sleet. My co-worker doesn't talk much on a dry night and even less on a rainy night , this leaves me alone with my thoughts of what to "blog" about, my mind is drained. Damn this rain! "and I wonder, still I wonder who'll stop the rain"
Then in '90, we were planning a trip to Cabo San Lucas, Chrysler was relaxing on my motorcycle seat, just kicking back and admireing her image in the right mirror and as I walked by her with a suitcase I swear she said my name. Again my friend told me I was Crazzzzy cat's don't talk, well they don't bark either but that's the noise she'd make at the birds. One night it was cold foggy damp and almost rainning, I'd been out on the road for a few days and I'd tried calling home with every chance I 'd get, no answer. Finally, I get hold of my friend, my first question was , "Where's Chyrsler?" No answer, silence, I ask again, this time my friend said "Are you sitting down?". "We can't find her and it's getting late." "Don't close the door on her keep searching I said, she's close by just don't close the door." I came in the next mornning it was too quite . A spooky kind of quite the one where you already know but you don't have the details and you pray that you're feelings in you're gut are wrong. Chyrsler was named after the type of car she was found in and it was a Ford that did her in. She had climbed into the motor area to stay warm that night. We rushed her to the vet. they could try and make a wheelchair contraption for her but her quality of life would be overwhelmly reduced. We'd have to help her with every aspect of living from eating to going to the bathroom. This was the hardest decision I'd ever had to make so far. I spent some time with her kissing her head, she lifted her right paw up to me and softly meowed my name. I knew she was telling me it was ok. I kissed her one more time and heard her purr as she difted away. I'm sorry , I have tears streaming down my cheeks as I type this and it's been 15 years later. Everytime I hear the song "Somewhere Out There" by Linda Ronstadt and James Ingram , I cry and say I pray for Chyrsler cause I know we're wishing on the same bright star.
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Miss Laura tagged me to list 8 things about my Lover/Partner so here goes. 1 .Carring and Considerate of others feelings and needs . 2. Strong character , doesn't give in to whims of her peers. 3. Patient, with me and with everyone she meets. 4. Can explain things so that I can understand them. 5. Can handle stress really well. 6. Manages her time effectly. 7. Minds her own business. and finally #8 drum roll~~~ 8. She loves me!
Monday, January 23, 2006
It was at Wesleyan College and it was a sliding fee, I think we actually paid a buck. I had just learned to drive and it was a push button transmittion. Long before they had off road cars there was me, driving on the sidewalk. You'd be surprised how much room there is between a mailbox and a telephone pole. You could drive a car between them!! Janis Joplin's"Mercedes Benz" was very popular, "Oh Lord, won't you buy me a Mercedes Benz? My friends all drive Porsches, I must make amends, Worked hard all my lifetime, no help from my friends, So, Oh Lord, won't you buy me a Mercedes Benz". I thought of these songs because they both caused quite a stir when they came out, "Cream's" Sunshine Of Your Love and then Janis Joplin's song ;"Of great political Importance" by Janis Joplin.
Saturday, January 21, 2006
There is a bar across the street and this couple both clearly intoxicated are yelling at each other. She collapses onto the curb. He is still yelling the rain is coming down in buckets she is in tears. I cann't stand to see people yelling and this goes back to my childhood, so I have to go over and I politely asked him to knock it off and step back. He did, I help her up and get her to a dry area, told her she could stay there as long as she needed to compose herself. Then I went about doing my thing again. Later I see her making her way across the street, he plain out left her. I 'll be glad when Spring arrives.
Friday, January 20, 2006
This is my "best Friend" when I let him have his way and he gets to listen to his favorite radio station. Right now he's nice and quite and mellow, he's listening to Midnight Cruiser by Steely Dan, he wanted to hear Dead Skunk in the Middle of the road, I keep telling him there is no such song. Wait a moment he said something, "PUMP IT" . Ok, is that better I turned it up. "LOUDER" "L O U D E R" "LOU DER" Hey Monkey that's as loud as it goes. Well I guess I'll just go make some bananna pudding!!!
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
Sunday, January 15, 2006
Saturday, January 14, 2006
I am sadden to read the Los Angeles Times this morning, it seems that some already endangered species of sea turtles have washed up on shore. This is just another example of how global warming and bacteria already in the ocean is affecting All of us as yet another species may possibly disappear . The OliveRidleys, Hawksbills and the Black Sea Turtle, usually the turtles biggest threat is hunters and reptiles are hard to kill and they are washing up on shore in tact. This is not a good thing.
Friday, January 13, 2006
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
Yeah, I'm feeling like a devil, a devil just itching to get out on the dance floor. A few spinns around and oh boy, I can hardly wait to get outa here! "I'd drive a million miles to be with you tonight, so if you're feeling low just turn on your radio, Everybody have fun tonight everybody wang chun tonight". "Oh oh oh oh, so let's sink another drink and it'll give me time to think, If I had the chance I'd ask the world to dance", Leave a light on for me, darling leave a light on for me. I'll be there before you close the door to give you all the love that you need. Darlin' leave the light on for me..leave a light on." Oooo something's got a hold of me now, I think I'm in love, cause I can't get enough. I know I'm getting excited bout getting away, well so far I've cleanned my pool stick . I'm really getting far. "Can you hear me calling out your name, I think I've fallen, I want to be with you everywhere,Ahhhh, I want to be with you everywhere".